Archive for January, 2010

Realizations Some Time Ago

January 30, 2010

1. Acceptance of the past is important in one’s vision of the future, or even in upholding the present. The past, in one way or another, will catch up on us. And when that happens, one must be prepared to look it in the eye. We look back to look forward.

2. The desire to confront the negative is a positive exploit.

3. There exist two guises of the self: the conceptual and the ideal. Linking the two is possible beyond one’s madness.

4. Manifesting one’s self helps lighten one’s load.

5. I hate rejection.

Back to School

January 19, 2010

Walking the grounds of a place where you made memories as a child could really be sad and happy at the same time, like that slight drizzle you feel while the sun lightly shines. And it was drizzling when I did so, the sun absent as it was rather a cold night when I strolled. I caught myself motioning to sites where I instantly found connection despite the indifference of the air: There the church where we used to celebrate first Friday masses, there the junction of walls which remained resigned to the playful shouting of twelve-year-old boys, there the boarding house I used to check from time to time to meet someone who has long drifted away from friendship, there the school, yes the school, where I learned many things I’d still have to unlearn today to finally learn. The rest of the area is a testament to progress now—new shiny houses, more variety stores, an emerging food frontier, said the news, because of the many snack bars mushrooming here and there. This was where I spent most of my life as a kid, as a teen, and I used to think I was somebody and nobody here all at once. If we switched places, I wonder, the village a casual wanderer and I a place of reminiscences, will I be worthy of its recollection?

Torpor Test

January 16, 2010

The torpor tests the thinker, transcends him further to turmoil, his twist the tremolo of things caught in a tremor.

Drummer Speaks

January 15, 2010

On drumming:

Make it heavy and steady. Stay in the groove, then move.

On performing:

You don’t need to know much about music to appreciate a song or a performance. It’s always the connection that’s important, the reaction, if the work left in the audience something worthwhile.

In the end, this is what matters: Did the performance, even for a moment, catch a collective heaving from the people? Make them sing along, tap their feet, or bob their head? Did it make them feel that they’re fucking rock stars too?